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thinking. April 2, 2008

Filed under: small talk — erinleete @ 1:16 pm

I’m a “hot tub” thinker. I like to soak in my thoughts.

What kind of thinker are you?


mornings. March 26, 2008

Filed under: small talk — erinleete @ 1:26 pm

Recently, I told a friend how I love sitting in bed on Saturday mornings, thinking and reading. It is a wonderfully relaxing way to start my Saturday. But last night, I started thinking it might be more than a Saturday treat. Before I went to bed I was reading the results of a strengths-finder test I took. Under the “ideas for action” it told me to think about my best day ever and figure out a way to repeat that as much as possible. (It was quite enlightening, but I will save that for another post.) So I thought to myself, “Self, you should wake up early tomorrow and just sit in your bed. Even though it is Wednesday.” I did it. And it felt great. I had more joy walking to my car this morning than I’ve had in a long time. I think I’ll do it tomorrow too. No need to save it for Saturday. I want my best day to be everyday!


i believe in the kingdom come. March 13, 2008

Filed under: on earth — erinleete @ 7:35 pm

I just received an email from a friend telling me that the second person arrested in Eve Carson’s murder went to Jordan High School until 2007. Jordan is the high school I was a volunteer Young Life leader throughout college.

The moment I saw those words, I froze. Pictures of the school, the students, my friends spun around in my head. I didn’t know the guy. I probably never even crossed his path. But, if only he had been reached.

Yesterday I listened to a podcast on the kingdom of God, and how it is our responsibility to bring restoration to the areas we are called to. I thought for a moment, maybe I shouldn’t be in full time ministry. Maybe I should try and bring restoration in another way. But, high schools need restoration. We need a kingdom vision for those places. We need warriors who will fight to bring God’s Truth into the halls of high schools, where students like Lawrence Alvin Lovett Jr. will be reached.

Last night, I was looking at pictures of the other guy arrested and my heart just broke for him. I have been praying these men will be brought to justice on earth, but be shown mercy from our Father, by calling them both to be His children. I pray that they will find the Lord. I pray for restoration of Durham. I pray for restoration of much of the African American community, that is so plagued by lack of male leadership in the home, broken family units, and the permeation of gangs. I pray that these two men will be saved and that through them, the Lord will bring restoration to the jail system, their families, the community and the nation. The Lord WILL bring restoration. We must work for it. But we are privileged to be a part of it.

We must go where the kingdom is weak and make it strong. And we need to be optimistic because our God is on His throne. Let us join together in the challenge to change, reform, redeem, restore and renew all for the glory of the Lord.


the benefits of blogging. March 12, 2008

Filed under: the blogosphere — erinleete @ 6:35 pm

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stand by your man?

Filed under: america the beautiful — erinleete @ 1:31 pm

Since I started this blog a few weeks ago, I have contemplated the type of content I wanted it to contain. I thought that I would try to avoid politics, but a recent event has really caught my eye.

During the fall semester of my senior year in college, I wrote an analysis of the New York gubernatorial race. The winner of that race, is the newest politician to be added to the sex scandal list: Eliot Spitzer. Spitzer has been linked to a prostitution ring and is now considering stepping down from office. But what interests me most is his wife, who stood beside him as he apologized, very rigidly and seemingly without much authenticity or sincerity. We have seen other women in politics do that too including former New Jersey First Lady, Dina Matos McGreevey, and former First Lady turned presidential candidate, Hillary Clinton.

McGreevey publicly sympathized with Spitzer’s wife on Larry King. Both of these women chose to stand behind their husbands who didn’t chose to stand behind them or the commitment that they made. What could have compelled these women to respond as if they supported their husbands, when the pain is probably overwhelming? Duty? Because they are in the public eye? Was it an effort to minimize the transgressions and perhaps save her husband’s job? Part of me thinks that such a show of support sends the message that extramarital affairs don’t destroy marriages. Obviously, I cannot empathize with Mrs. Spitzer, nor do I know how I would respond in the same situation. I just wonder if she had a choice in the matter and what she really intended to say when she stood by her husband as he announced to the world that he was unfaithful to her.

I wonder what message would have been sent if she hadn’t stood beside him.



old friends. March 6, 2008

Filed under: amigos — erinleete @ 5:08 pm

Not old people that are also your friends. But friends that have been your friends for a while.

I think everyone would agree that old friends are great. One of my first friends from college is coming for a visit this weekend. So, I am dedicating this post to her and to all my other old friends out there.

Old friends become a part of who you are. You talk like old friends. Make faces like old friends. Have the same memories as old friends. Make noises like old friends. Borrow clothes from old friends. You don’t have to tell about your other friends to old friends because they already know them. You don’t have to worry about your old friends getting their feelings hurt when you tease them because they know you tease them because you like them. You pick up right where you left off with old friends. Old friends call you when they see an elderly white couple driving a car with spinning rims. Old friends call you just to say hi. Old friends remember weird things that you have said in the past and laugh at you about it for the rest of your life. Old friends don’t let you win in blokus. Your old friends don’t have to let you win in blokus because you always kill them in it anyway. Old friends say dumb things, but you still like them. Old friends get bridesmaid dresses that will flatter all body types. Old friends care about your future. Old friends will always be your friend, no matter where they go.

If you don’t have an old friend, make a new one and then keep being their friend for a while. They will then turn into an old friend. (That sounds a lot like something my old friend that is coming this weekend would say. And if you don’t believe me, read her blog and see if it sounds like the stuff she writes… especially read the post about the clouds hogging the water.)

*of course new friends do many of these things too, but this was for old friends.



Life’s Little Sparklers. February 28, 2008

Filed under: heart talk — erinleete @ 8:51 pm

About a year ago, one of my friends told me to make a list of 30 things that bring me joy. It is quite a rapture, letting your mind drift to things that send sparks to your soul. It is so easy to get caught up in the things that weigh us down that we forget that there are things that captivate our hearts. So, I’ve reproduced my list and added to it.

My List:

  1. Making eye contact and smiling at strangers
  2. Cotton Candy
  3. Memories of playing with my dad when I was a child
  4. The beach at 4 pm
  5. The patterns that clouds make in the sky
  6. Fresh cut flowers
  7. Pictures from my sister’s wedding
  8. My mother’s creativity. Her mind. Her eye for color and creation.
  9. Good conversation about life
  10. The Bible
  11. Family Traditions
  12. The sweeping story of Redemption
  13. People who have a heart for the world
  14. That Grandma Hazel lives to celebrate the lives of others
  15. Rocking chairs and front porch swings
  16. Sweating by the pool in the summer
  17. That I have a sister
  18. Paint colors
  19. Finishing a book
  20. The colors of the sky in the morning
  21. That my reputation is secure in Heaven
  22. Having friends at the post office
  23. My grandma Campbell’s spirit
  24. Speaking Spanish with Hispanic immigrants
  25. Baking
  26. Community
  27. That my sister, my mom and I all cry when we get gifts that we love at Christmas
  28. Letters from my friends at Jordan
  29. Being so overwhelmed with joy that my heart feels like it will explode
  30. When my friends marry men that they love and admire
  31. Colorful aprons
  32. White hair on old ladies (probably because of my Grandmother Leete)
  33. Tulips
  34. Romance
  35. Encouragement
  36. Raccoons
  37. Women who have opened their homes and their lives to me: Nancy Ruiz, Deb Perry, Cynthia Hutchinson, Kristy Hatch (and Scott, too).
  38. Movies, songs and novels that speak truth
  39. Being childlike
  40. Finding the Gospel everywhere
  41. Sailboats
  42. Listening to people talk about things that they love
  43. My sister’s high pitched voice and that her husband teases her about it
  44. Glass pitchers
  45. Being surprised
  46. That we can be agents of redemption to the fallen world
  47. Singing songs at the top of my lungs
  48. Spring days
  49. Tire swings, swings that you pump with your hands, swings that hang from trees by thick rope
  50. Barbeque
  51. Cake stands
  52. Vision casting
  53. Pointing out things I love about people
  54. Hallmark cards and commercials
  55. Songs about men loving their wives
  56. A man cherishing a woman
  57. That my sister calls Julianna, her “kid” and that it irritates my mom
  58. Purity in heart
  59. Sunroofs
  60. Graham’s compassion
  61. Encouraging people to pursue their passions
  62. Innocence
  63. Sending cards in the mail
  64. When you can see rays of sunshine
  65. An open door, open pantry policy (one which I hope to instate in my own home one day)
  66. Rollercoasters
  67. Driving just because
  68. Driving and holding hands
  69. Going to Carowinds with my cousins
  70. Letting the kids I am with act crazy in public and smiling when people make dirty faces at me
  71. Being crazy in public
  72. Reminding myself of all the times that I acted crazy in public and trying not to let that side of me go
  73. My niece Julianna’s gentle and quiet spirit
  74. Seasons
  75. Fun dishes and glasses
  76. Cookouts
  77. When my mom gets really excited about a classic rock song
  78. That my mom knows more about classic rock than you do
  79. That my mom rocks
  80. My dad’s youthfulness. That he doesn’t act older than he looks and he looks 24.
  81. Grandparents
  82. My sister’s laughter
  83. BBBS (reading the Bible with high school girls at 6 am)
  84. Family Vacation
  85. Catie Blair’s wisdom. That she is turning into that older, wiser woman.
  86. Handwritten letters
  87. Skipping
  88. Hospitality
  89. Sparklers
  90. Old friends
  91. Carafes
  92. The way Graham views people and situations, the insight he has into their hearts and lives and the grace he shows them.
  93. Exercising
  94. Laughing until I pee just a little bit
  95. Reunions
  96. Memories of my great-grandparents flirting
  97. The suspense that comes with plane trips
  98. That Graham is waiting for me on the other end of those trips
  99. Charlotte in the Spring and the Fall
  100. That my sister is pregnant
  101. Fireworks
  102. The mountains of North Carolina
  103. Hosting parties
  104. Mom and Pop restaurants
  105. Watching people fall in love with the Lord
  106. Falling in love with the Lord
  107. Grace
  108. Forgiveness
  109. Guy friends that are honest about hard things
  110. Learning how to love better
  111. Weddings
  112. Seeing myself change and look more like Jesus
  113. Seeing others change and look more like Jesus
  114. Patience
  115. Pictures that capture moments you never want to forget
  116. Sitting on my dad’s lap when I am sad
  117. Sarah B’s soft side
  118. Riding my bike to the grocery store
  119. Charleston, South Carolina
  120. My cousins
  121. That I went to school with some people for 16 years
  122. The ideas I have for my future home and garden
  123. My mom’s desire to understand me
  124. Conversation about real struggles and issues that people face and then finding hope
  125. Transformation and redemption


Wow! What a life the Lord has blessed me with. Lists like these really illuminate our craving for beauty and meaning. I would guess that no matter who you asked, everyone would come up with a few things that point to their desire for truth. What a great way to share the Gospel.

What things make your list?